A liter of tears

•November 8, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Bonds,

once held so tight by red strings,

have eroded away.

A faded memory,

keeps diluting itself with each passing hour.

A blurry image,

is created by the uncontrollable rain cascading down a visage.

Heavenly dreams,

once held so high are now intangible.

A distant face,

gets embraced by a cloak of shadows found deep with in the  abyss.

Lively voices,

are now becoming muted by the melody of the rain.

A sweet parting song,

a lullaby of detachment followed by the blue delicious sadness.

 

The rain keeps falling

And time keeps passing.

Drop by drop,

The familiar silhouette gets drenched and washed out

Minute by minute,

the storm clouds become less heavier.

We become less heavier.

no longer burdened by the blue.

We have come to the end

The price we paid was

A liter of tears

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

IO it has been a long time

•October 3, 2009 • Leave a Comment
Blue utopia

Blue utopia

My oh my it has been forever since i have blogged on this.

well there isn’t much to say now that i am back to school life i hardly have time for myself.

I am trying to put up my photography on here but i keep forgeting to (would also like some feedback if anyone has time )

Up on top is an old… very old pic I have taken.  Macro shot of rain droplets after a very horrible rainstorm in my little town. Decided to do something different and played with a hue a bit so the purplish tone is not it’s natural color,

but I am so excited i am gonna see brokencyde next week SOOOO HAPPY :]along with

BrokenCYDE / Kill Paradise / The Ready Set / Watchout! Theres Ghosts / Blood On the Dance Floor

happy happy :] and i already got tickets all it i is just a matter of time ~_~

Brokencyde+l_4c74039850184e57ab79be191972Listening to: Madina Lake

Watching: my screen lol actually my sim in sim3 wich is an awesome game btw

Keeping the flame hot

•August 27, 2009 • Leave a Comment

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name: Keep me warm

Listening to: Bitches by Hollywood undead

So this is my latest pic up here. I haven’t taken Macro pics of flower in awhile and it’s a nice way to practice with the camera. Anyways the color on this is amazing i love how the petals are faded then the center it is a vibrant yellowish orange. I really want to get a Canon Rebel IT or XI but it is so much money ._. right now i have a canon power shot which i think dose a pretty awsome job in taking pictures. But dream that i will soon get a proffessional black chunky camera xD. I’m not even sure if i will take up photography as a career path but in the mean time it is fun to do

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Name: Leave out all the rest

using “super macro” setting on camera which i am not sure what the difference is between the regular macro setting yet . I think it is becaus this setting dose a better job in blurring out the backround perhaps. And I am trying to make my portfolio as big as i can so yup keeping the flame hot :D and just trying to get as many pics as i can xD

Makes me wonder

•August 23, 2009 • Leave a Comment

IMG_0984Don’t use my pics without my permission  Name of pic: Makes me wonder

I’m still uploading these pics from my last visit ~_~ yeah I’m really slow with this stuff <_<

anyways this was taken in New Rochelle at a private beach that me and my mom discovered. It not suppose to be a pretty shot it is just suppose to be interesting to look at. If u read my last post then u know about the beach that i am talking about but if you didn’t then you have no clue in what I am talking about. So I’ll just repeat i guess.. This beach is near a place that my mom works and one day on her lunch break she found this. The next day she dragged my out here with my camera. i have to say my mom got a good eye for cool places. We had to pay to get in but it was so worth it. i got so many great shots, i just haven’t put them up yet <_<

The color are great, and is love the puddle that i reflecting the bench. Also if u look to the horizon u can see house… and they are HUGE mansions …..wouldn’t mind living there. The whole coast was surround by these gorgeous houses kinda gave it a Hampton feel to it.

anyways check out my deviant account

p.s follow me on twitter for news of my writing and photography

P.s.s don’t expect an everyday thing that i post my photos and writting, like i said i am slow with kinda stuff so yeah i may not be very active but i will try
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Name: Orange harbor

Photography by the naiive

•August 22, 2009 • 2 Comments

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Okay so  I dunno If any of you guys that have been reading my blog  know that I am also a photographer (not professional just a hobbie). I think i will also Star bloging about them as well ^_^. I will try and finish my stories but i haven’t been really inspirational so i kinda dropped them . I have been writing poetry so my writing skills are still being used.

Alright so me and my mom have been kinda having a rocky relationship so we decided to just hang out to just reform our bond.  So my mom works near this place near a harbor and she decided to take me cuz she knows that I like to take pictures. Once we got their is was really beautiful we started to wander and we even found a park that is where i took the soda stand ( it has a link to my deviant account)

I think the problem with me and my mom is miscommunication and just not beging able to relate to each other …. but anyways i don’t want to get tooo personal but yeah.

Back to the park …….it was lovey and i enjoyed it, glad that my mom took me. Funny cuz I really didn’t want to go, but i ended up being dragged there but glad that i was. I haven’t put all the pics on my Deviant art account, I’m still editing and i am kinda busy, but i recently quit a job so i probably will get to have more time ^_^

about the photo… I dunno but i really love this pic and it became a big hit on my dievaint account so i am really happy. the colors are very vivid and they contrast so well…. i don’t reallly like how the sun is making the scenery behind kinda blank out but it’s alright. The machine was great it actually sold Rockstar energy drink in it O_O i found that amazing …but then again i find the strangest things to make me happy <_<

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The Cycle of time

•August 19, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Hours……minutes……even seconds can change the course of time.

Every action has an impact, every action has a reason.

Every man serves a purpose.

Will you serve yours?

The tierd old man keeps walking despite  the fact his legs won’t give no more.

The young girl continues to wait despite the fact the she knows that he will not return.

The widow keeps on praying despite the fact that god cannot do anymore.

 We strive for something greater, put are hearts and soul into everything.

Then reality comes in and sometimes his benevolent and sometimes wicked.

The moment that you break this cycle is the moment when you have made yourself into something .

The seconds that took you there are forever written down and remembered.

As for me I am just so sick of it.

When will I break the Cycle?

When will I be able to serve my purpose?

Every man and women makes an impact

whether the encounter may be big or small it all matters

whether you talked or not they still mark you

the snickers, the gossip, the praise, it all takes a blow

The cycle is torment, it breaks you, and leaves u with nothing

I’m done with hope I want something more

All I want is some message

can you give me that message?

Will you be that person that will change the course of time?

How It Works

•August 17, 2009 • Leave a Comment

It’s amazing how the world works…..how people work

the situations that one must face and overcome

Is there a reason why one must undergo this so called mayhem

We never truelly understand the marvels of the world

Never truly appreciate the time that we have….never make a change

Are they waiting? waiting for what?

we tend to wait and watch those get ahead of us

and wait for those pair of words to be whispered sweetly and gently into our ear

 ” Everything is going to be okay” 

but is it going to be okay?

It’s amazing how words work…. how they have power when combined a certain way

” I love you”

” I hate you”

Sticks and stones my break my bones but words can never hurt me……. how wrong that is

Words have power…never forget

It’s amazing how the world works…..how people work

Still Doll

•August 12, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Blood_Black_Lips_by_EmeryRosePowdered up with red sinful lips.
A facade that you carry to bewitch your men.
A harlot in the making, may I offer some tips?
Heart racing, lustful heat, deadly sin
Tell me babe when those stilettos come off
your plastic is toxic, your skin thick and tough.
A single lady, a beaken here and there, and here they come
White fair face, slim figure, munipulating little whore.
I can see it right now. Your rotten to the core!
You can gloss thoughs lips all you want but you’re done glossing me, I don’t want anymore
Baby doll take back your skimpy black dress I’ll show you the door
Don’t give me that face, redundant and all worn
Hard to believe that thoughs red lips are full of lies
You turn about, head held high, damn your pride
Tell me doll when are you going to show your true colors?
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I bet 25 dollars on suicide

•August 3, 2009 • Leave a Comment

So this shall be me just ranting about life and how much it suxs
Ignore this it’s not part of my stories
And it dosent make sense…. my list is just a jumble of thoughts that are in my head

1. Have u ever noticed how people can be so fragil and emotional?
2. They never see the good, I sometimes find it insulting, selfish perhaps is the right word.
3. I hate it I hate it all
4. I think I hate My outlook of life more though
5. Good damn it I’m so stressed
6. Things just seem so bad right now but I know that I am not the only one who has it tough
7. Feel so depressed, fake a smile but all in all the depression is still there
8. This list makes no sense and it dosent flow w/e it’s just me venting
9. I feel so alone at times, I can’t even control it, loose my appite, loosing weight…stressed
10. Wanna lose myself in music and never be found
11. Why am I always like this
12. I just want to be somewhere else right now, things are so pointless
13. Ahhhhh!
14. Back too what I was saying in #1…. You know why I say this, b/c I just had a friend that just made me feel like shit. I love u and all but F- you ur not the only one who has it bad. I’m happy that u trust me enough to talk to me but seriously dont say things like ” I wish I could be u and be carefree” never say that u never what to be trust me
15. That just shows how one sided that relationship is
16. I’m argueing weather I should go back into my bad habits again…… And when I mean bad they are bad
17. Why is it so hard for me to trust people?
18. Why am I the way that I am?
19. Damn it why am I up at 1:34 am ?
20. U know what, I can’t wait till I leave this place
21. I gotta stop being so god damn depressed
22. I just hate how I get all emotional over the smallest of things, and just bottle them up….. And wait till they blow up
In my face
23. Why don’t I just say “I’m not okay” when some asks “how are u?” I just fake that stupid smile and respond “good”…. It’s like I wanna keep to myself
24. isolated
25. <—— I bet 25 dollars suicide
25.5 not really it would cause to much commotion, and pain to people I really care about
26. I feel better….. Sorta……
27.I'm still stressed I got a workload to do….. And I'm just so damn lazy….. It piles up
28. The times are hard but I will get over them
29. I'm done now
30. Goodnight

What have you done?

•July 30, 2009 • Leave a Comment

7/29/09

” I’m sorry” she cried

“What now! Is it really worth not to listen to me?”

She stood up ” Even if I did, Your words cause so much pain”

” You get me so pissed off sometimes” he yelled

The two looked at each other,  feeling the world crashing down

The girl bit her lip.

she feared that if she let the first tear come down then they would not stop,

like rain droplets, tricking down from above

“You mess me up, you carry that hate that I feel.” He said as he looked away, hands clenched tight

“it’s so hard to be with you. Wish that I had other choices then to hurt you”

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